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Breathing

By Pamela
Lately it feels as if the world has just been in my face. Everywhere I turn another situation is there giving me the finger.  I feel really ganged up on. I feel really tested right now. In this overpopulated world, I am feeling alone and vulnerable.

Things that were constant for me have started changing. I am not sure the direction they are taking me, let alone I am not sure it is a direction I will like. I find myself hurting. Not a physical pain but more of an emotional one.

I have been here in this space before. A few times. I don't really like it here. I feel the need to protect myself from the emotional hurt. I usually do that by closing myself off. Turning inward. Isolating.

I know my tide will turn. I just don't know when. Until then, please know that I am doing what I know to do. I am tightening my circle. Keeping my head down. Focusing on what matters the most.

And breathing. I just need to keep breathing.

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