I will say....it has been a stressful week. You want to be positive and think positive thoughts but in the back of your head you are always thinking...there is a small possibility.
The other thought that has consumed my week is prevention. Self admitted I like to control aspects of my life. One of the most frustrating things to me this week is not knowing what caused me to have Cancer. It is not like lung cancer that is directly tied to smoking. And because I do not know what caused it, I honestly can't prevent it from ever coming back. Is it the soda I drank? Is it the food I ate? Is it the crop dusting I grew up with? or did some gene just go rouge and morphed into Cancer?
I recognize that my obsession about prevention has to do with just how desperately I never want to go through chemotherapy ever again. It has been two weeks since I had my last chemo. I still find myself easily tired. My skin still itches a lot! And my bones still ache on a daily basis.
On a much lighter note, I do want you all to know that I enjoyed watching Bon Jovi sign on the American Music Awards. Along with two other rockin' songs, they also sang "It's My Life!"
Tomorrow, we have a few new answers....stay tuned.