I have been sick for three days straight. I have thrown up so many times that I have lost count. Yesterday when I went to get my Neupogen shot, they doctors office kept me, gave me an IV and pumped fluids and anti-nausea medication into my body. It worked for maybe 3 hours. Then the vomiting returned.
I went back this morning and did another round of fluids and anti-nausea medication. This time they used a different drug and I am happy to say at the time of writing this post, I have not been sick since 11:15 this morning. I am hopeful that it is over.
I am thankful for my husband. He has taken very good care of me in the past three days. I am also thankful to my Mom, she packed up and drove here quickly to help out and is still here. I am also thankful for Meeghan, she has given me good advice and things to watch for. I also know many of you have been saying prayers for me, and I am thankful for those.
So many of you have commented on my strength and outlook during this process. I want you to know that it is not always that strong. The past three days have tested me. I have a good friend whose sister has had Breast Cancer twice. I have thought about her a lot over the past three days. Right now, I honestly do not know if I was given a Cancer diagnosis again if I would ever consent to doing chemotherapy again.
I know I am a low point emotionally as well as physically. And thankfully, I do not have to make that decision right now. I am hopeful that when my physical body stops hurting then my emotional state will improve.